The ship groaned like a dying thing.
That’s what Pramoedya noticed first—not the smell of salt
and rust and frightened men packed together in the dark below decks, not the
particular quality of silence that settles over a group of people who have
learned that the sounds they make can be used against them—but the groan
of the vessel itself, as if the ocean were slowly squeezing it, testing the
seams, finding the weak places. Ships know things. This one knew where it was
going, and what it carried, and it was not happy about either.
Ten days on the water. Ten days to reach Buru Island, which
sat out there in the Banda Sea like a patient animal waiting in tall grass.
The year was 1969, and the New Order was feeling good about
itself.
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There are places in this world where something has gone
deeply, fundamentally wrong—places where the bedrock itself seems to remember
the screams that have soaked into it. Gettysburg on a November morning. The
quiet fields of Cambodia. The particular flatness of a certain road in Rwanda.
Buru Island is such a place.
When the prisoners arrived—intellectuals, writers, teachers,
farmers, men whose only crime had been standing on the wrong side of an
idea—they found wilderness waiting for them with something that might have been
described, in a darker sort of fairy tale, as a grin. The trees were enormous,
ancient, indifferent in the way that only truly old things can be indifferent.
The heat sat on your shoulders like something with weight and intention. Men
who had spent years in Javanese jails looked at the wall of green and
understood, in the clenching gut-deep way that bypasses thought entirely, that
this was worse. That this had been designed to be worse.
For the rest of your lives, the commander told them.
His voice was casual, the way a man’s voice gets casual when he has thought
very carefully about the effect he wishes to produce. Until you all drop
dead one by one.
He said this the way a reasonable man might discuss the
weather.
---
The bayonets came out at dawn.
Every dawn. Reliable as roosters, bright as bad news. The
men were worked from first light until the dark came down and swallowed
everything, clearing forest that didn’t want to be cleared, uprooting trees
that had been growing since before anyone now living had drawn a first breath.
Their hands bled. Their backs bent. The tropical diseases didn’t ask
permission—malaria didn’t care if you had been a schoolteacher, didn’t care
about your children’s names or the poems you had written or the particular way
your wife laughed at something genuinely funny. It came anyway, the way it
always comes, the way all the worst things come: without warning, without
malice, without mercy.
Food was a memory. Medicine was a rumor.
And still the paperwork flowed. Beautiful, official, stamped
paperwork. The regime loved its paperwork the way some men love their
mirrors—it showed them what they wanted to see.
---
Here is where the story gets strange in the particular way
that real evil gets strange, stranger than fiction, stranger than the things a
writer would dare invent because a reader might put the book down and say no,
that’s too much, nobody does that.
Somebody did that.
By the mid-1970s, the international community was asking
uncomfortable questions. Amnesty International. Western governments with money
the New Order very much wanted. Human rights, they said, using those two words
that regimes have always found so inconvenient, so slippery, so impossible to
just make go away. There were reports. Reports of conditions, of deaths,
of the particular baroque inventiveness with which the guards had approached
their work.
The New Order considered the problem.
They would need a show.
---
There are two kinds of liars in this world. There are the
clumsy ones, who lie and know they’re lying and hope you won’t notice. And then
there are the sophisticated ones—the ones who understand that the most
effective lie isn’t a substitution of falsehood for truth, but rather a framing
of truth itself, a careful arrangement of real things in an unreal pattern,
like staging a dinner party in a slaughterhouse and calling it a restaurant.
The New Order was not clumsy.
They needed families on the island. Children, specifically.
Children playing in yards are a universal language—nobody looks at a laughing
child and thinks concentration camp. So the wives were brought over. The
children were brought over, into an environment of weapons and forced labor and
systematic starvation, and the official language called this reunification,
called it generosity, called it by every warm word available while the
bayonets stayed where they were, slightly out of frame.
But even this wasn’t enough. Even this beautiful arrangement
of real things in a lying pattern wasn’t quite the thing.
They needed weddings.
---
Think about what a wedding means.
Think about what the word wedding does to the human
mind, the pictures it calls up, the feelings it trails behind it like a bride’s
veil: flowers and hope and the specific vulnerability of two people deciding to
believe in the future. A wedding is an act of profound optimism. It is a bet
placed against all evidence that things can be good, that good things can last.
The New Order understood this perfectly.
Couples were held—held is the word journalist Hamish
McDonald used, and it is precisely correct, it is the word that cuts through
every euphemism—held for up to a year, a ready supply of brides and grooms,
kept waiting like props in a storage room until the cameras arrived. And then
the ceremonies were staged. Mass ceremonies, with the guards present in their
boots—you could hear the boots on the ground, that particular rhythmic sound, thud
thud thud, like a second heartbeat, like something very large and very
dangerous reminding you of its presence.
The brides smiled nervously.
Of course they smiled nervously. The cameras were there, and
the boots were there, and the rifles were there just at the edge of the frame,
and a nervous smile was the only smile available, the only smile that could fit
on a human face in that place at that time. The cameras recorded these smiles
as evidence of joy. The footage went out into the world. The world,
which wanted very much to believe, which found the alternative too large and
too dark and too uncomfortable to sit with over dinner, looked at the
nervous smiles and called them happy.
Pramoedya called them corvée. Forced labor marriages.
He had a gift for the precise word, Pramoedya did. It was one of the reasons
they had needed so badly to silence him.
---
Journalist David Jenkins, who had seen enough of the world’s
arrangements to be difficult to fool, stood in Savanajaya—the family unit, the
showpiece, the good face they put forward for diplomats and foreign press—and
found the right words for it.
A human lobster pot, he said.
Easy to enter. Impossible to leave.
He wrote this and sent it out into the world, and the world
noted it, and the New Order noted that the world had noted it, and the
paperwork continued to flow, stamped and official and carefully worded, and the
boots continued to sound their rhythm on the ground.
---
The years passed the way years do in such places: slowly
when you were living them, and with horrifying speed when you tried to look
back and account for them.
The New Order fell eventually. They always fall eventually.
The ones who build these arrangements always believe, with the particular
arrogance of people who confuse the ability to do a thing with the right to do
it, that they have built something permanent. They never build something
permanent. What they build are ruins in slow motion, structures in the
process of falling even while they appear to stand.
After it fell, the survivors spoke.
Hartini was eighteen years old when they married her off in
one of those ceremonies. On the official certificate—that beautiful, stamped,
official certificate, the state’s artwork, the state’s version of the story—her
husband’s occupation was not listed as his actual occupation. It was listed as:
G30S/PKI Detainee.
This followed her family for decades.
Her children knew it. Her grandchildren felt it. The stamp
traveled through time the way the worst things travel through time—invisibly,
persistently, in the blood. It was not until 2014 that she received a
certificate that did not carry that particular freight. A clean
certificate, they called it. She would have been in her mid-sixties by then.
She had been eighteen at the wedding.
The boots had been there.
The cameras had recorded her nervous smile.
---
The ship had groaned all the way across the water, and
Pramoedya had listened to it, and he had understood what it was saying.
He had written it down later, because that was what he did,
because that was the thing they could never quite take from him no matter how
hard they tried:
The claims that our situation is the same as that of
transmigrants strike me as increasingly strange—especially the suggestions that
we bring our families.
An understated sentence. A quiet sentence.
A sentence that contains, if you know how to read it, the
sound of boots on the ground and nervous smiles captured on film and a young
woman who would spend forty-five years carrying a stamp she had never earned.
The ocean doesn’t remember. The paperwork doesn’t remember.
The cameras never remembered anything except light and shadow arranged in a
pattern that someone with sufficient power decided was the truth.
But the survivors remember.
They always remember.
That’s the thing about the dark—it doesn’t erase what
happened in the light. It just makes it harder to see. You have to look
directly at it. You have to be willing to look directly at it, at the nervous
smiles and the boots just out of frame and the ship groaning across the water
toward the island that waited with all the patience of something that did not
need to hurry.
It had time.
It always had time.
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Based on the historical record of Inrehab Buru
(1969–1979). The words of Pramoedya Ananta Toer are his own. The rest is
imagination in the service of truth.
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